My mind races towards a finish line my body may never catch up to
broken, battered, scared and confused
I’ve hidden my face in shame
banished my friends from my life
I became embarrassed by my pain.
I isolated myself, put the old me on a shelf
with my back turned
and my eyes closed
I began a fantasy, like reality tv
determined..not to expose the REAL me.
September 21, 2011
This poem was written during a time in my life when I had experienced part of the worst relationships ever. What had started out as a seemingly blissful union, over time had turned into something completely opposite. I was lost and confused during this time. I had hidden from those who loved me. I didn’t want to be seen as this weak woman unable to control even her home life. All this had done, though, was cause me not to have a sounding board. I had banished my friends from my life, so of course when I needed a shoulder to cry on, they were not there. I was alone. And I relied heavily on writing poetry to get me through. If you are going through the emotions and life just isn’t being fair, and you need a listening ear..feel free to drop me an email (firstname.lastname@example.org). I know what it’s like.